Hello, is it me you're looking for?

... Probably not!

Hello, it's me again, tell a friend to tell a friend. I have been MIA with the writing and honestly, it's because life has been lifing and I definitely lost myself over the last few years. Motherhood definitely has a funny way of sucking me in and making me feel like I need to be and am superwoman whilst simultaneously making me feel like I'm and all round piece of shyte that's just out here failing (I know that's not true ofcourse).

Someone I know and have seen maybe once in the last 5 years asked why I had stopped as she really followed my writing and it helped her in mending her relationship with her mum. That stuck with me. Little old me helped someone who I hardly spoke to through my writing... That was the whole reason I started right?! It meant so much to me and has always been what I want to do.. just help, by being open and honest about my own life and the things that interest me. So here I am, trying to find myself once again by starting to do some of the things I used to enjoy. I don't know where this is going to go or if it's going to help anyone else... fingers crossed... maybe it'll just help me, but I'm just going to do it best I can with no pressure and little to no expectations.

Since I last wrote on this blog I've had my second baby, bought a house, struggled with grief, been made redundant, changed jobs multiple times, took our first family holiday (then our second), celebrated my 30th, lost friendships, made new friends, started the process of closing down rudorwaishe.co.uk... the list goes on. Its been one hell of a rollercoaster and I have moments of buffuzzlement (don't google that) and have also really loved parts of it. I've struggled with a whole bunch of things and also grown to see just the many areas I actually excel in and I'm here to write about most of it.

Will I tell you about everything... NOPE, definitely not.. but I will share some things and be as transparent as can be on this big beautiful internet without intruding on other people's lives (unless I am given permission to do so ofcourse or if I'm feeling petty). And for all you nosey so and so's yes my husband reads most if not all my blogs before I click publish.. he's my other half so it's important to me that he sees what's going out to the world.

I'm back baby!!! Well at least for as long as my hormones and ADHD will allow me. Mis-spellings and all :) ...So buckle up and let's begin to dive in at very unplanned and random intervals :)

Guess who's back back back, back again ghen ghen...